After TEN years

So ten years have passed bye! It was on this day in 2000 I began my month long spiritual exercise of St Ignatius or 30 days retreat! Time goes very fast! It seems the other day, we all gathered together in a room, our Novice Master gave points and explained every bits of it. We were thirteen of us altogether. We listened to him very carefully. We did not know what would happen! ‘Let the spirit enter in your life’, ‘let Jesus guide you’, listen to your inner spirit’ – these are few phrases he constantly repeated.


Why do I remember my ’30 days’ after ten years? Do they have special meaning in my life now? Did they leave any mark behind? …many more questions!

After ten years all I could say that those 30 days changed my life. They gave new meanings. It was an encounter – encounter with God as well as encounter with myself. The FRUITS I received during those thirty days helped me to walk the way. The journey I undertook, which I still continue to walk wasn’t so easy. The path was tough. The means were painful. There were times when I fell off. Everything appeared to me meaningless. Darkness almost engulfed me. There were times when I did not have anyone to lean on or listen to my heart.

But nothing seems to have stopped me. I could overcome all those trials and all sufferings. I could cope with all the situations. But how could I !!! I tried to find God in everything, tried to contemplation in action and process of discernment was there. These are few things I learnt during ‘30 days’. They remained with me. They are my constant friends. (Incomplete)